Half-truths and honesty

A few posts back, I mentioned about myself telling half-truths, and in the comments, I and a new friend discussed me holding back the truth. You can see it here: One of the Problems I Have

The last post I wrote, someone praised me for my honesty.

However, the last post I wrote was originally quite a bit longer than what is currently up there. I had looked at what I had written, and just as with my friend that I had been untruthful with, I said "They don't need to know that," and I deleted it. This time I didn't even have the excuse of wanting to protect someone from being hurt. I just wanted to save face and not look worse in other people's eyes. So now you'll get to hear the rest of the story, because a half-truth is also half-lie.

There is a reason why I specifically started with that way that I am not myself. I wrote how there was something I had regretted doing earlier this week, and that thing that I did was taking advantage of a friend's feelings for me. It was after we had watched I Heart Huckabees as well, which was yet another reason why I wanted to start with that first way I am not myself.

So, I'm sorry for not being honest with you all before. I pray that I will do better in the future.

What is this all about?

Who has a blog entitled "Forgiveness?" Well, I do for the time being. I was having a bit of a personal reflection crisis a few days back, and I realized I couldn't forgive myself for certain things. I know God would forgive me, and other people might do it too, but for the time being, I couldn't just let go what I had done.

I thought to myself about it, and I can't remember all that I was thinking about, but I do remember wondering if other people feel the same way. So in my little computer nerd mind, the best idea I had was to make a blog. About forgiveness.

Really, I hadn't given the idea much thought past that. What would I do with this blog? Would I be forgiving myself of something in every entry? Would other people submit things they're sorry about? How often would I be able to write in here?

These are all things I still must figure out, but I really just felt that people need to feel forgiven. People need to forgive. There's too many grudges and too much bad blood between people in the world. Hell, most of the fighting in the Gaza strip seems to me to be getting to the point of "Well, somebody bombed us, so we should go bomb some of them." Both sides are too hard-headed or too angry to actually talk to the other side and try to work out peace. Nobody wants to die. All we need is a bit of forgiveness and understanding.

Somehow this "I don't know what I'm doing" post actually got somewhat of a purpose. Will I be able to be this lucky every day? I doubt it. I need to work out some ideas. So, I would like to apologize to you, my audience, because I have no idea what I am doing. I hope you can forgive me.